Evil sisters

As in yesterday’s post hinted, girls can become enslaved and/or exploited through other girls. The Cora story showed that it was actually her ‘disabled’ poorly sister that got her into male relationships to make money for a dream holiday. Cora was always made to feel responsible for her sister’s disability and probably complied to not disappoint her poorly sister further.

In my relationship with my sister, I was the more disabled one but she was the one who gotten me into the trouble-some problems.

My sister was short of evil. She had a relationship with my dad, and then has countless lovers all over her holiday stays. She goes on holiday at least 3 times per year. She now suffers from nerves in her old age. She must be nearly 80 now.

My sister is responsible for me losing my virginity at just above age 16. She literally took me on a holiday to Yugoslavia and organised men to make love both to her and me. I never had sex previously and was totally not expecting this and after that first encounter refused to take part.

Yet that casual attitude to sex and the sickening attitude towards it is responsible why I moved out from home. I wanted to get away from the bad atmosphere.

My sister is not only responsible for losing my virginity but also for me starting to smoke.

She took me on a holiday to Yugoslavia and organised a bloke to make love to me, whilst she had another guy and she did it anywhere, in Fig orchards in broad daylight.

I was naive and the guy took me to the beach at night and then insisted on seeing my towel to proof that he took my virginity. I am now wondering whether he gave my sister money for it.

After that I refused any further attempts from blokes my sister introduced me to.

She did this all her life, having boyfriends and not being able to conceive because she had her womb removed due to an ectopic pregnancy, whilst she had a relationship with a married man, she could carry on like that all her life and keep lovers at holiday destinations. They kept on writing her letters and tried to let them come to Germany to stay with her from Greece or the like but she never allowed them to come. She just went to another destination next time.

She kept a consignment of wigs because men would follow her to work, as she worked behind the counter at the post office.

So what I am trying to say, that if you are exposed to bad influences from your own family, then you have little chance of overcoming that. And if your family is supposed to be respectable, you have nowhere to turn to as you have to keep the secrets.

Especially as school hours in Germany were much shorter, it was only a half-day ending at around 13.00. You are then exposed much longer to bad parents or evil siblings.

My mother was totally depessed and an alcoholic whilst my sister was a man-eating nympth. I don’t even think she was a victim of my dad, as she wanted sex whenever she could and even moved 2 floors up, so she could be together with my dad. She never complained about it to police (as far as I know).

I don’t even care if my sister – who is still alive – reads this because the burden of knowing this and nothing ever having been done about it, is just about too much for me to carry around.

The ‘MeToo’ movement seems to care a lot about abuse and exploitation in the work place but I have never been exploited in the workplace I had to cope with incest (even though I didn’t know it at the time) and a sex made sister who gotten me into bad habits.

I think you just don’t talk about that out of embarrassment but I really do not care any longer. My sister severely critised me for getting married and having children. And even though it wasn’t a respectable (respectable in her view) marriage to a rich man, at least it was a marriage and it was decent – from my part of it – and the children borne were not perfect but we did our best.

My sister now refuses to speak with me because I lived on benefits mostly, since I got married, but really what is bad about having some morals? My sister even wanted to prevent me from getting my share of my father’s inheritance and tried to make me agree that my share gets paid to her; she is a money-grabbing no-good sister.  I had to fight her lawyer for months to get my share of the money.

She has tons of money and sits on it. I reckon she should pay the state for all the benefits they had to fork out for me claiming all those years as it is her who produced a lot of the trauma.

I think my life in Britain would have gone different would I have been able to have a normal relationships with my sister and family. As it was, I just had kids with a husband who was work-shy. He only loved films.

We have very few children in our German family, everybody was always working and nobody had any kids.

I am now not interested in any type of relationships to do with intimacy with anyone. I suppose I would not have had much interest in sex ever, would it not have been for my sister introducing me to it.

I just know that any trouble I gotten myself into in my life was because I needed to get away from home and that gotten my into contact with people I shared flats with and met whilst trying to find jobs and getting settled. You just couch-surf to have somewhere to sleep.

Perhaps our crime-rates today are partially due to bad family relationships, which breed anti-social behaviour in people.

Of course the law has forbidden forced marriage and domestic violence but what happened to me is not against the law unless somebody complains about it.

But in many families keeping to the letter of the law is not the first priority. If it was society would be in a better state than it is.

 

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