Keeping things under control

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I wondered for quite a while now why men can manage to keep on wearing the same suit for years and years without having to change colour or style. That is because men keep things under their control and they are happy.

Women on the contrary keep on changing fashion, colours, styles, spend much more on their wardrobe and contribute to environmental damage because the production and transport of fashion has a major effect on climate change and environmental degradation.

Keeping things under control, also includes keeping partners under control. The strict regulation of relationships, allows men to feel under control and therefore happy without a need to keep on changing their fashion.

The more people feel they are without control over their lives emotionally, the more they spend on fashion, beauty, make-up, colourful and stylish garments.

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That is a hypothesis without actual proof. It’s my feeling. I will leave scientists who love to collect information and collate to actually proof that, saves me a lot of work. I think the more controlling people are the less they change clothing style. Hence all those who wear uniform are most in control of things. And whilst I started watching US detective films, the ‘Men in Black’ from the US, CIA, FBI, NSA, always wear black without much change. Because they are in control.

See the emotional people always change their outfits from very colourful to even more colourful.

Women seem to have to fight much harder than men to keep control because they have lost control over their own affairs over the centuries of being controlled and now are trying to find their style. With it comes a constant change of garments, hairstyles, make-up, fashion, which costs women an enormous amount of money.

Women are charged twice as much as men for hairstyle appointments. Even if the outcome of a haircut is the same, a woman who goes to the female section of a traditional hair stylist pays more than a male going to the male side.

Hence I think that brought on the uniform decision of most women to just leave their hair long. Cutting it is just too expensive. Whilst maintaining long hair is also very expensive to do with the amount of shampoo we need. I heard someone say that long her is important to women for their sexual or gender identity, like cost doesn’t come into it.

I remember when Britney Spears shaved her head and that was declared mentally disturbed, but when men do it, it’s normal. I loved to cut my hair off at times, as it provides a fresh feel. I am sure men know that feeling only too well.

For security purposes employers love it if employees do not change hairstyle as it is easier to keep things under control. Changing hairstyles are a nightmare for security conscious employers.

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There was a time when male long hair was a privilege but males have decided they are better off fighting with short hair these days. The ones who have hair long, do it because they can earn money with it or get some other benefit.

We have one hairstylist locally, who charges by time spent on a client. That is a neutral way of charging.

I am quite happy to wear my jumpers for decades, as long as they hold and my Burberry jumper seems to last a lifetime. So no need to keep on buying new jumpers.

What seems the most important skill, is to live within a budget and maintain control over that budget, that is something most of us can do. Regardless of how many demands are made on a person, sacrificing one’s budget to demands of gaining power by use of fashion, should be out-phased by all those wanting to keep in control.

I am a nightmare for employers as I change my hairstyle from long to short and vice versa all the time. That is because my personal equilibrium was disturbed by males who exploited me over housing and didn’t allow me to carve out a career for myself without also sexually exploiting me. I think that women have a long way to go to stay in control of their own affairs.

Erosion of independent women’s rights

When I watched last night’s council meeting, I was in awe over the contradictions and discussions held. The issue of the St. George’s Pool was put aside in favour of the Bryant’s Match girls issue. I learned from Councillor Gold’s contribution that the Bryant brothers were Quakers. I remember George Galloway relying heavily on the support of the Quaker’s by using their hall near Holborn for meetings.

So the Quaker’s brothers owned the match factory, which ruined workers health so much, that they would not survive beyond the age of 30. But the fact that women strikes were held was heralded by yesterday’s council chamber’s praise led by Mark Francis’s wife Rachel Blake. Mark Francis himself used to send me a lot of insulting emails a long time back and my complaint was rebuffed with political banter.

Yet, me, being a fiercely independent woman, having trouble with the husband of the defender of the match stick girls, has significance in itself.

The meeting also spoke about quality of housing and that newly built council estates in Tower Hamlets are not all they are supposed to be, quality-wise.

Rachel Blake is a definite asset to Labour and to Mark Francis. The way she soothes opponents arguments and tries to integrate the suggestions with Labour strategy, is perhaps naive but nice to watch.

So anyhow, it was made clear that Mayor John Biggs, wants to completely replace St. George’s, meaning that this pool is going to be out for years.

So then a go was made against neighbouring Greenwich council over the maintenance of the foot tunnel and that Greenwich closed it when Tower Hamlets stopped payments towards the maintenance. Is it wise for Tower Hamlets Council to fall out with neighbouring Greenwich?

The forthcoming Council elections of course will see that a lot will be done to overthrow Labour. I will keep out of this completely.

But, I remember the state of our housing estate, after the last time we had a long Labour government. By the time Gordon Brown lost the election, our housing estate was a playing field for weeds with no proper maintenance, the internal state of the flats was equally neglected.

Then, when we got the Conservative government in, they put money for internal and external housing improvements.

By then, the Council was led by Lutfur Rahman and the internal repairs were of a very bad quality in some respects. Our newly put in toilet broke after 3 months and had to be replaced. Windows and locks were so badly maintained that my balcony door didn’t lock at all after the council workmen had a go at it. Some work was very good, like the carpenters who covered my rusty pipes and the floors were screeched. But the new kitchen furniture, especially the work tops were the cheapest possible quality and are already looking bad. Externally, they are still making good on bad workmanship.

I can’t forget that one workman who begged me for five pounds because he said he didn’t get paid but his gangmaster gets all the money.

I vividly remember the workmen who blamed me for next door’s balcony not being cleared and I had to go onto my balcony to proof to them that the other balcony wasn’t mine. So much for council’s knowing who lives where.

So anyhow, back to women’s rights or a loss of rights.

Whilst yesterday’s council meeting was going on, I received an answer from Councillor Mufeedah Bustin, to my enquiry about the marginalisation of women because of the increase in women only services. At the same time I see on social media a lot of men only meetings, being called community meetings. Mufeedah doesn’t see it that way, she thinks that women only events help women, who otherwise wouldn’t do activities at all.

There is the crass contradiction to me, a woman who can make my own decisions, and the women who are only allowed to do things if their male partners allow them to do them because it’s women only.

The more women only, male sanctioned events take place, the less is there on offer for the rest of us. Women who work, have careers, do not just want to go swimming when the women only session is on, they want to go swimming when they have the time to do so.

What we need to do is stop the harassment of women, not separate women away from men. Mufeedah explained to me that it is legal to provide gender based services as long as it is easier, yet the services at Mile End are being exploited by people who use the women only facilities to gain free entry to the gym, which causes a loss to the service provider for tens of thousands of pounds per year. It was explained that women only have to walk for 1 minute to get to their provision but that one minute was complained about as intolerable strain on women. ???????

Women services are still under the control of men if women are only allowed to do activities because their male partners allow them to do it because it’s women only.

I think women with partners who are perpetually jealous would be afraid to do mixed gender events because their jealous partners would accuse them endlessly of having it on with other men.

The question is, should we accommodate this increasing number of controlled women by providing women only events instead of telling those jealous men to change their tune? I don’t believe for one moment that women would be doing this by free choice, that they either do nothing or do it if its women only. That attitude comes from women who grew up under male control and never knew that a free choice for women is possible.

I noticed during my Libel trial against some Labour Party members how much they dislike women who have their own mind. Labour never forgave me for leaving the party and exploring the political field. Hence I now do things, which are distinctly non-political. Political ownership is as bad as personal jealousy. Yet, when it all comes to the crunch, my personal freedoms are important to me and if that means going to loggerheads with political parties so be it.

The tendency in society today to improve equality by enabling unisex facilities helps women to become more independent because overall control of who does what gets reduced.

Just as One-Housing provides cycling training for women only and I contacted them about this, they replied on Twitter that this helps keeping women in a safe controlled environment, but isn’t that what the Taleban in Afghanistan do, keeping women in a safe controlled environment, away from jobs and in the safe controlled home?

The general direction is the same, keeping women at home, keeping them in women only events, it is keeping them under control.


The muddle of Covid status

Whilst I have a valid Covid Pass, as issued by NHS England, I live with someone who recently tested positive for Covid and has to self-isolate over Christmas. My NHS Covid App flashes green, does not tell me to self-isolate. My NHS App still shows a valid green Covid pass.

I do not have to self-isolate but the person I live with has. But I was told by the NHS over the phone to get a PCR test.

So, yesterday, to make double sure I went for the PCR test and still await the result. But, today’s rapid lateral flow test again was negative.

Update: The vaccines do work.

My PCR test came back as negative, 22/12/21. Despite living with someone who is positive and had only one vaccine, due to age, and I had three vaccines and didn’t get ill, despite close contact.

This is probably due to the impressive array of injections I had:

yearly Flu vaccines, 2 Covid Jabs, 1 booster Covid Jab.


Got my NHS invite for the Covid Booster on the dot, six months after my second dose. I booked straightaway and went to my local vaccination centre.

Despite having had an early Flu jab and the two Covid vaccines, I picked up a cold. Runny nose, a shiver and a slight, chesty couch. The runny nose was enough for the Covid centre to turn me away and demand a PCR test.

Unfortunately I wasn’t told how to book that and how to behave until I’ve had the test and so I went shopping, before coming home and booking that PCR locally. I gotten straight into a walk-in centre, which I could only approach on foot and not public transport. Though I had taken the bus home between the rejected booster and after shopping.

I went to the PCR lunch-time Friday and gotten the result when I woke up on Saturday. It was negative, as all my lateral flow tests and the previous two PCR tests.

Now I have to wait two weeks for the next available, local booster appointment.

But, I am very happy to say that I did more than 10.000 steps on the day and walked 6.5km

Complaint up-held

Sense at last.

UK Visas & Immigration have decided to up-hold my complaint about treatment received via HM Government to do with the EU Citizenship procedure.

Despite being a fully signed up British Citizen, with a British passport since decades, HM Government kept on sending me letters about EU Settlement.

  1. They said that I need to apply for the EU Settlement scheme but if I gotten the letter by mistake just to ignore it.
  2. They then increased the pressure a notch by sending another letter, saying that the deadline to apply has now passed and I still didn’t apply. Now they said if I do not ring them within 28 days, I shall lose all my benefits in Briitain.

That really annoyed me.

I even thought it was a scam and asked ActionFraud and the Police, who both confirmed those letters are genuine.

I did ring HM Government and had to wait over 1 hour to get through, to explain old passport numbers and so on.

But, I also decided to make formal complaints about this and UK Visas and Immigration decided to up-hold my complaint because it is more than unreasonable to threaten a British Citizen for not complying with a procedure meant to be for EU Citizens.

So I got this nice email from UK Visas and Immigration with an apology 2 days ago.

The forward slant

it might be beneficial for my knee that this exercise bike I bought has a forward slanting cycle mechanism. Normally, the cycling pedals are straight underneath the seat, leaving legs and knees to put the weight and muscle action towards the feet pressing down.

With this cycle the legs point forward and not downward, but it’s between a conventional and a recumbent cycle.

This is quite beneficial for my dodgy knee.

I developed knee problems in my left knee, with a torn ligament – at one point – and constant pain, when I do a lot of walking in foot hugging glove like trainers. I then also get foot ligament inflammation, which might be due to my gout.

I now changed my footwear to broad fitting larger trainers and use this exercise cycle, which I assembled slightly wrongly, so that the arm rest points into the wrong direction but helps me to rest forward onto it.

The type of footwear you use, has an incredibly important effect on your health. If you suffer foot, leg, knee problems, try other shoes and perhaps an exercise bike.

A lot of discoveries were made by accident and I accidentally wrongly assembled this cycle’s armrest and didn’t notice that the position of the pedals is slanted forward quite a bit but it works well for me.

I notice that my calf muscles get well exercised within only a short period of time. I feel it when I walk off after only a 15 mins exercise period.

Since I use this cycle, I have lost all pains in my left knee.

Sheer insanity

There is absolutely no rational explanation why HM Government should send me letters threatening me with my immigration status when I reside at my current address since over 30 years and had at least 3 British passports since I live in the United Kingdom, London to be exact.

It occurred to me that the letters could be scamming but ActionFraud says they are genuine.

So why would the government threaten British Citizens?

There could be a few explnations.

  • Checking whether people live where they say they live to make savings
  • Cruelty
  • Stupidity
  • Sexism (I am an independent woman not married to a British man nor in any relationship). Though I have a lot of grandchildren.
  • Racism (my name sounds foreign, to British aristocrats. Perhaps they set their criteria to create mailshots to European sounding names).

The problem with government mailshots is that they reach millions of people literally and cost a lot of money to run. I did receive the same letter not once but twice.

Yet when I contacted Citizens Advice about this, they say they have not heard of such a case before.

Perhaps there is a slight chance that I am the victim of some individual research without my knowledge of being selected.

Both letters posted on 9. August 2021. The first one reached me on 18. August, the second one reached me on 21. August.

That just shows that the mail delivery companies take quite a lot of time to deliver letters and not all at the same speed.

But what is apparent, is that governments always love to create underdogs and not so perfect people who need either be punished or be locked up.

I have a completely unblemished record (in criminal terms) and there is nothing that could be held against me, yet, the government is creating a situation where they can investigate, question and accuse, potentially.

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If I think I passed very stringent advanced disclosure checks for my previous post as passenger service agent at London City Airport, now the government denies knowledge that I am even British.

No wonder we have a Monster Raving Loony party. That’s all you can vote for, is insanity.

Wonder what rational explanation the Home Office will come up with when they reply to my complaint sent to them via their communications system. Not long ago, I sat in a conference with Kit Malthouse.

Jake Davidson, another weirdo

This case just reiterated that parents have to systematically repel their own children’s attacks.

I came across a lady last week who tearfully admitted that her daughter beat her, I told her not to put up with and report it to police.

Parents have a big responsibility. If we allow kids to step over the line then they will never learn the difference between wrong and right.

I just apply the same principle to all. Nobody is allowed to take the Mickey.

Dentist shortage

I think the demand on dentists has risen considerably with the higher use of social media. There are much more pictures taken, published, shown and those pictures must have perfect teeth.

Hence, dentists are one of the most needed professions today.

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You simply can’t show your face without good teeth and those who can pay the most to get the teeth fixed get the fastest service.

Whilst those wanting NHS services won’t be able to find a dentist easily because dentists find it much easier to make money selling their services.

The perfect smile has become one of the biggest selling points of the cosmetic industry, of which dentistry has become the latest gravy train.

See the protruding tooth on one side, that is a NHS denture that is slanted to one side and affects my facial expression.

Looking at my own pictures with my old denture, I wondered why it is that so many people with NHS dentures seem to have imperfect dentures whilst the paid for ones always look better. I was told that NHS services cannot access the full variety of tools required to make dentures perfect.

Of course that greatly disadvantages NHS dentist users from getting well paid jobs because I reckon you won’t even get an extras job as actor unless your teeth are perfect. And who is paying for it?

I am now waiting since a year to get a new denture and have to attend fortnightly fittings to just get a new denture. It takes a long time.

Sefer Kehillat Shlomo

One of the biggest mysteries in my life is a Hebrew prayer book left to me from my late father’s estate. My father left around 1/4 Million in money but this book is of enormous value, not monetary but meaningful.

People like the Royal family always talk about their past, present, history and family connections, but for me, in my family, we never even talked about it. My mother’s family doesn’t come far from Coburg, which we visited when we went Germany a few years ago.

So, when I got that book into my possession, I started to think about my family history. At the time, around 2007, I put up the pictures of this Yeshayahu Vinograds on my Myspace account and someone from the Jewish Museum In Berlin gotten back to me to tell me what it was. In 2007, the Jewish Museum in Berlin said, they would be interested in the book, which was printed in 1750 by Chajim Ben Zwi Hirsch.

As you all know my life went up-side down, because after my father’s death, and my appointment as LEA school governor, all these rumours started to appear online and also I spent 3 years at the Royal Courts of Justice with the only legal case I’ve ever lost. And so, I forgot about the book.

I spoke to a friend about it a couple of days ago, who advised me to go to the London Jewish Museum in Camden with this but as my father was from Berlin I thought that the Berlin Museum would be a better place.

The writing says: “Walter’s Hebräisches Gebetbuch”, translated: Walter’s Hebrew prayer book.

I started wondering, how is it possible, that a man who is listed as Lutheran in all my paperwork about my father, had a Jewish prayer book in his possession. The thought, that he could have taken it off a Jewish victim in World War II came into my mind and horrified me. The inscription on the bag at least seems to indicate that the prayer book actually belonged to a family member and wasn’t taken off a Jewish victim in World War II.

So, that implies that one of my father’s brothers had a Hebrew prayer book and that it belonged to him. So I now wonder, whether there was a hidden Jewish past in my family, which was concealed because that was the only way for them to survive. Incidentally Walter was drafted in as soldier in Word War II, along all my father’s brothers and my father was the only one of the brothers to survive the war.

I posted pictures of my father’s family, whom I never met some time ago on Facebook and nobody at all came forward as recognising the people in it. I can’t find a picture of Walter but only Paul. So I post the family pictures, which I think as significant and I would be grateful if anybody at all could come forward with some information if possible.

This is my father’s brother Paul and Paul is also the brother of Walter, to whom the prayer book belonged. My friend told me yesterday that there is actually a medal on the German Nazi uniform. Quite, interesting that the brother of somebody who owned a Hewbrew prayer book, gotten a commendation from the Nazis. Picture taken on 29. December 1943, Paul was killed shortly after.

Dance in Berlin, no date on picture, I think the lady in the front behind the girl with white hairband, is my father’s mother or the grandmother I never met.

That is a family snap from my father’s family. He is the one in the specs and the lady behind him is his mother, seen in the previous pic at the dance. I think that Walter might be one person on that picture here too but I don’t know who.

As it is, I think it is something hard to live with, that all I got are a lot of pictures of people I never met or knew about whilst my father was alive.

In today’s age, people should no longer be afraid to be Jewish and if anybody in those pictures recognise themselves, please contact me and also if anybody knowing any of these people could please contact me.

I have posted previously about accusations my sister made about my father, I have not heard anything about this at all yet. But it seems that the after-effect of the war had a very long-lasting impact on my family and that nobody ever talked about, made it much harder to copy with it.

I think there was something going on, I still do not know about. The fact that my father or my mother never spoke about the war or family and what went on is very mysterious.

But putting this all in the context that I always had problems to find a political and spiritual home, it makes double sense now that all these rumours about me started after my father’s death and that prominent Labour politicians, were involved in it.

I tried four political parties in all, The Labour Party, the Conservative Party, The Communist Party and Respect. I spend very little time with both Communist or Respect.

The Labour Party refused my second membership application shortly after I posted about attending a Jewish prayer service for Holocaust day. Wonder whether there is a connection.

Whatever for the moment, I am not politically bound and like this more because there is more than politics to life. I think it is good to try out political parties, people shouldn’t be afraid to do it, to experience first hand what political parties are like. There is never a minimum membership with any party, you can come and go as you like.

I like doing something useful for everyone, and that is what we all should do.

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