Morals as fashion item

Morals really are the fashion of the times and rules of ‘acceptable’ morals are usually set by the ruling classes.

For centuries morals were dictated by biblical terms. The permanent marriage between man and woman were promoted by Christians and Muslims.

The inability to fit in with the requirements to marry and have kids and stay in that relationship for live brought on many social complications. Those fancying the same sex partners for example or those needing gender changes because somebody important wanted them in another role rather than their traditional marriage commitments.

It’s often not quite apparent that the ruling classes make the rules. At the moment Western society moves away from fixed matrimony. Because top-society people feel better in equal relationships all our laws are now changing towards equality all around.

Women can now have kids and work. That of course gives men a much better chance to pick new partners and change more often.

In the past, when women were tied to their homes, men found it harder to get good quality new partners. They either had the marital sex or had to look for paid for girls. But now, when they have a big playing field in the work-place to choose from, that latter option becomes more obsolete, though not completely unimportant.

And the desire for changing partners is not just led by men, woman are also supporting that option.

I just don’t understand why women find that necessarily ideal.

Heinz-soldierLooking at my own dad. He was the kind of guy who liked women but he liked the feeble, nimble and pretty type. He didn’t like the child-bearing obligations a lot. The detective Lauri, in the Deadwind series I am currently watching on Netflix, reminds me of my dad a lot, they even look very similar. My dad was a very good-looking guy.

Unfortunately for him, he was sent to Norway by the Nazis and had to work with heavy water and that kind of messed up his sperm. There is almost nothing more embarassing in Britain today than having a relative who once wore a Nazi uniform. Just realise my dad’s dog looks a bit like the pooch that the detective, played by Neil Dudgeon , in Midsommer Murders has.

But also the relationship that Karppi has with her son, whose become a bully at school and Karppi, telling him that she will always support him. There I am doubting how far that support can go as with detectives, they naturally need to keep the law. Lauri broke off his relationship to his drug-addicted girlfriend because he could not have had a friend with drugs staying at his flat.

Lauri says he never wants to be a father to a child but now has become a father but he also kissed Karppi with the two children.

Men are sometimes mixed up about relationships and obligations.

So women now can decide to have abortions. I have had two myself because at the time I thought that the quality of life those two babies would have had was too low as they were conceived on the move. I had moved out from home, was couch surving and not fixed for a career. I wanted to be married at least and that’s what I did. Actually I did not want to have children at all at first.

So now we come again to family allegiance. And this law and order hinge makes a good case of how much allegiance you actually can and should have to your family, if they for example are breaking the law. Would it not destroy your life if you supported family members, just because you were born in a crime family?

Equally family secrets can totally mess a person up. My advice is don’t have them, so nobody can blackmail you.

If you support your kids when they do wrong, it does not help them to see the error of their ways. They get encouraged more in their wrong-doing than to do the right thing.

 

 

compulsive control disorder

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They should introduce a new classification of mental conditions, the Compulsive Control Disorder. That is the best way to describe how people use media to control others or enjoy being controlled by others by the same means.

Seeing how much time people spend on processing information and on the phone or social media, it has to be concluded that this time results in mind control over the people involved.

Every hour I spend watching the TV, the more time do I let others control how to think.

A simple example is the latest advertising about going on holidays again after the lock-down. They are selling this to us as having the freedom to go on holiday.

Yet, if you look at the basic structure of a holiday, it seems you spend a lot of money on 2 weeks. Some people get into debt just to go on that holiday.

I would find it much more distressing that I spend money on 2 weeks of sitting around elsewhere and calculating the cost of this rather than not going on holiday and paying off my debts instead and spending 2 weeks in my local park on a bench.

How many hours do young people spend on the phone just talking to each other. In fact, they control each other. Each person involved in that conversation is not able to spend the time constructively like learning for better grades or doing some research how to better their live.

You could say but they are building relationships. But do teenagers really need to build relationships? It would only be beneficial if that relationship actually leads to definite improvements and not just emotional exploitation over one another.

Christmas is something, we are all exposed to. The advertising is so strong that almost everybody gets drawn into this. But, the only people laughing at Christmas are those who make a lot of money from it and can relax counting their cash.

A lot of people are unable to do something for themselves and are not even able to understand their emotions. Personal insecurity leads people to wanting control from somebody. Is that why so many break the law, knowing they end up in a prison?

Religions are a great example. Somebody has the idea to invent a super-national being. We can easily transfer all our own emotions into dedication towards that illusion. This concept has existed since people can communicate, super-natural Gods have been around for as long as humanity exists.

People’s thinking, habits, emotions, are channelled into controlled events, so that people can be better controlled.

Of course our very nature dictates ability and requirements. But always remember humans are not sheep.

 

Clumsy mistakes

Noone can accuse the British for ousting people for clumsy mistakes. We have accepted all horroundes mistakes that Boris Johnson made, from the letterbox ladies to the Care homes. Yet Harpers is an American publication and published a letter about censorship and Freedom of Speech.

During my time at the High Court, I suffered the most horrendous online bullying, being called names and people generally very negative with swearwords woven in.

Now I find myself warned by Facebook if I say something that offends somebody there and they threaten you with expulsion if you say something as hateful as that again.

I re-posted an optical trick illusion – it was clearly marked as such – Facebook deleted the video saying it was not realistic.

Taken censorship to that breadth and width is overdoing things a lot.

Perhaps, now in hindsight, I would not bring the libel action again on the strength of radicals posting over-radicalised stuff, just to make their case and impress the Anarchists, I would just argue as I did in a recent posting, that people who do not like education come up with all kinds of tricks to make educators look silly.

But also perhaps I had suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder and the trauma of what had happened to me, even though a very long time ago – was still firmly wedged within my psyche. It helped me to get over it though.

The over-anxious police actions like they recently happened to Olympian Bianca Williams are a sign of the time.  This kind of stuff happened in Germany during the 70s everywhere, its just that they didn’t search you, they locked you up for months. I wouldn’t attribute that to racism, they are generally freaked out about the fact that they lost control over some crimes.

I went to Lidl yesterday and wondered why the queue at the self-checkout was non existant when normally most people queue there. I attribute that to the fact that they sold knives only available at the cashier.

 

 

Education v. Emotion

I finally cracked the mystery of my life. Since I’ve received by first death threat, I am reminiscent of the history of events that led to this point.

If you look through this blog, I’d received a fair amount of banter and sheer bullying abuse from people over the years but never a death threat.

I received abuse over remarks I made to  family members about improving ones chances in life with extra education and re-doing GCSE and A-levels would improve employment prospects. Another remark that a grandchild of mine would be better off with his dad then culminated in an actual death threat. Yes, I reported that to police and gotten a crime number. I do not tolerate any type of threatening behaviour from anyone and especially not from family members or my own children.

As soon as I had become a LEA school governor people started to dig out dirt, wrote about an ancient arrest in the 70s in Germany. It’s all been recorded in this blog.

Yet, it is explained in the simple fact that as soon as serious education comes into play people suddenly start to react over-emotional.

Some questions I needed to answer for myself were:

  1. why didn’t I attend university when it was free of charge in Germany
  2. why did I get married to a man I hardly knew

Those are the most important questions and I shall answer them.

To 1. It is a very long story. I did not attend university and dropped out of education because the events in my family, which happened whilst I was young, were so disturbing that it led to my temporary downfall and demise.

The case is that when I was 7 I suddenly started to develop scoliosis and it went very badly quite rapidly. Thanks to my father’s private medical insurance I received intense treatment, which then eventually culminated in 2 operatoins when I was age 14 to straighten my spine.

Prior to that my mother – who worked as a telephonist at the local hospital in Wuerzburg – had become an alcoholic. She attempted suicide several times and at one occasion I found her hanging on the living room cupboard upon my return from school. All this was enough to send me over the edge and I started to attend local discos and my learning started to suffer.

I had excellent grades in Elementary school and was top of the class, I had become champion in mental arithmetic but then when my mother started drinking, I dropped out of the results and had to repeat a year because I went to a grammar school teaching business and economics. My results there weren’t fantastic and I lost my desire to educate further.

Though I eventually started Higher Education in an Engineering College in Cologne as the only woman there. But without any emotional or financial support from my family I soon fell off the planned track.

My family was a mystery to me. Nobody seemed to talk to each other, there was little emotion and no loving atmosphere. My mother finally apparently committed suicide. On an evening when both my father and my sister and I went out, my mother went to the local River Main in Wuerzburg and she was found drowned the next day.

For years and years I never understood why my mother, who was always very caring friendly and totally rational suddenly went over the edge and became an alcoholic and why my sister seemed so distant and my father so very cold. Understand this happened in the 60s.

Just prior to my fathers death – I already had been in London since 1977 – I learned that my sister actually had a sexual relationship with my father. She admitted it to me personally when I went to Wuerzburg for my dad’s funeral. My sister refused to attend the funeral because my step-mother attended but she came to see me the next morning and I asked her straight up and she admitted having had an affair with my father. My only explanation is that this is the reason why my mother started to drink because she found out about this.

It is more than unfortunate that this had not been reported to the police at the time and if it was I wasn’t told about it.

We had lived in a house in Wuerzburg in the second floor and my sister moved out of the home and gotten a flat in the fourth floor of the same house. My sister called me a cripple because of my scoliosis and told me never to have children. My sister is still alive today but we have no contact. I sent her a Christmas Card a few years ago and it was returned by the Post Office marked refused.

Over the years my sister treated me like dirt because I married the man I had my children with and she attacked me for having had those children and refused to support me in any way whatsoever.

That brings me to point 2. why I got married to the man I didn’t know.

I was in an emotional volative state of mind. I lived in Cologne, attended school and had a part-time job at the Otto Versand but emotionally I was a wreck. All those unexplained emotionally shocking events in my past, the lack of family support drove me to act irrationally.

I met a man who said he was working for the famous writer Guenther Wallraff and the man asked me whether I could help him type a book for the author. I said I could do it but would not be able to it in my flat but suggested we go to London instead for a few days as I knew a friend there. Suddenly there were money problems and I agreed to take out a loan to bridge costs. You know where this is going. Once in London the guy disappeared, the 3.000 Deutsch mark disappeared and I was crushed, ruined and totally fed up. Apparently Guenther Wallraff was interviewed by police about this but he said he had nothing to do with this whatsoever.

The guy who apparently took my money and disappeared with it was later found dead and a murder investigation ensued. The police was dealing with this and I was greateful that Deutsche Bank let me off from having to repay that 3.000 Deutsch mark loan.

However I was completely paralysed by yet another strange occurance in my life. Whilst I had the flat in Cologne waiting for me, I just could not bring myself to go back. I met my husband in a pub and fell head over heel in love. I had found a job at the BBC German service but had nowhere to live in London.

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Street pary in Longfellow Road, I lived at no 36 for some time until the whole road gotten torn down and I became a council tenant.

My husband was squatting in the famous Longfellow Road and I thought that was very romantic. Literally my brain completely stopped working, probably because of the sudden hormone over-drive I found myself in.

I insisted on getting married and had no bigger wish than having children with the man I loved. There now followed 15 years of hardship and poverty. I spent my later inheritance before I even got it but repaid all my debts once the inheritance arrived from Germany.

Now five children later I actually also have around 10 grandchildren. I have no contact with many of them. All those grandchildren were born by my daughters, my sons, went on to get jobs and approached life in a more rational manner.

Whilst I raised my kids I bought them a lot of books because I loved books. As a child I read hundreds of books. I opened up my own private library as the school didn’t have one. I borrowed books to poorer pupils who could not afford them.

Unfortunately my husband turned out to be the uneducated type. In fact he had no interest in education or reading whatsoever. That was one major contributing factor to me getting a divorce eventually. We had many arguments over life-style choices and attitutes.

The only achievement he had was being an extra in the film Fightclub. He worked as volunteer in his later years up to his death from cancer. He was never violent towards me and for that I am thankful. He probably only married me because I worked for the BBC and he loved films.

I have had 3 daughters and 2 sons from that marriage. I became naturalised and eventually a British Citizen. There was no support from my German family and especially not from my sister. My father sent birthday and Christmas cards and visited a couple of times and that was it. The rest of my family didn’t want to know.

I eventually took my sons to meet my German cousin in the remote village he lives in in Unterfranken a few years ago, so just that my sons know where I come from.

I have become completely estranged to my daughters now. All of them decided to bunk off school in the latter stages of their education and follow their father’s life philosophy. My daughters mixed up with partners but I had no say in their choices.

My second oldest daughter was born with a severe learning disability, which was – in my opinion – due to negligence during the home birth assistance. Her brain was starved of oxygen as the birth was delayed due to a sleeping pill I had been given by the midwife. Instead of delivering the baby late at night.

Unfortunately she was never given a statement of special educational needs and so her learning disabilty was never formally diagnosed until she finished with secondary education. She was found to have a mental age of a 9 year old and an IQ of 64. She never understood the purpose of education and schools just ignored her needs. I went to lawyers about this but legal action was denied as viable by a barrister because no statement of special educational needs was ever issued.

Yet this undiagnosed learning disability caused the whole family enormous problems.

I needed to care for her and worked from home for years, even starting my own company.

Nowadays children are much better off, they get Statements of Special Educational needs and lots of extra support but we had to do without.

My daughter with the learning disability was being abused by some men in the 90s without my knowledge but the police could not prosecute because of her own thinking that her abusers were her best friends. Anyhow the Director of Public Prosecution refused to prosecute the case. Of course an abused woman with a mental age of 9 would believe her abusers and think they are her best friends.

I think what people need to realise is that improving education is always the way forward. There is no good reason to attack people and especially not me for suggesting it.

I think emotional involvement often leads to distortion of facts and people just do not see the reality of the situation any longer. That now applies especially to one of my daughters who – I believe – threatened me. That matter is with the police.

Whilst I raised my children we had to live – at some point with 7 people in a 2-bedroom council flat – but that should not have led to people losing faith.

I now care for my granddaughter who has excellent grades and wants to go to university. She is good at sport and has a totally different attitude to life. She has lived with me whilst my other children moved away and so she is not exposed to the muddled way of thinking that some of my daughters adopted.

Literally these days, to make it in life, kids really need to focus on education, push away all other influences that hinder a university degree. I am now more than willing to support that.

I don’t believe that keeping secrets helps anybody. Abuse and emtional turmoil always comes to haunt those who were exposed to it and so it is that I publish the facts about  me coming to Britain and how my life here went so far.

I think that everybody should have ambitions and dreams and do their best to fulfill them. Making things better in life is one of the reasons we all live and get on.

If you read through this story and arrived at this, you will be pleased to know that I am going to be 69 years of age this year and that I despise all those who generally accuse older people of suffering from dementia or Alzheimers and having a loss of mental capacity. Older people have a lot of wisdom to give and younger people are better off listening to it.

 

 

distorting facts

whilst some Christmas advertisements promote sending gifts to remote pensioner parents or grand-parents, it is more likely that those parents and/or grandparents are expected to send gifts to the remotely living grandchildren they never see.

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Online platforms enable pictorial representation of the sweet little things that then translates into buying gifts for birthdays, Christmas, graduation etc.

Yet, distant relationships become estranged and any parent or grandparents can get a real shock when they are suddenly confronted with the actual ideology their children have.

Once a parent always a parent is no longer valid. Once we stop receiving child-benefit forthose little ones, they become legal entities in their own right and we no longer need to care.

They have moved out, make their own friends and no longer ask for approval. They do no longer need to ask for approval, as we do not have those large family homes that house generations.

We have small dwellings that house 1,2 or 3 at most. Always on the go.

Whilst parental instincts dictate the caring attitude and the: “I must safe him/her from harm and promote their prospoerity”, the kids themselves often couldn’t care less.

They are far away and use platforms like Facebook or Instagram to post those heart-melting photos that make you save up your pension for the next celebrationary gift.

They often know what you want to hear and say little else.

But if you hear something that is concerning, unlawful or outright dangerous, please do not hesitate to report them to the proper authorities and keep yourself and others safe.

Graduation gifts are reasonably good as they reward achievement and that is what parents and grandparents really should concentrate on.

 

Keeping it safe – the in-betweeners

It doesn’t matter whether its

  • Neo-nazis
  • Daesh
  • Extinction Rebellion
  • Left-wing rebels
  • Religious fanatics

They all have one thing in common. They want to destroy the current orderly organisation of society and after the breaking down of law and order implement their ideas of right and wrong.

If it wasn’t for the current furlough scheme, they would be a very big step ahead of their goals.

Whilst I keep going on about family and relationships it becomes more and more clear that in many instances, in our current modern society, ordinary working people spend less time living at the same place, working for the same employer, spending time with their family.

The average school kid these days spends around 8 hours per day in school and around 2 hours of that are used for communiting to and from school Then there are clubs and/or home work.

Whilst a parent or parents spend in excess of 8 hours working, commuting.

Very little time is actually spend together in the family unit. Kids use Apps, time online, TV watching, gaming, streaming, pod casts to entertain and form relationships away from the person to person communications among their nearest and dearest.

Extremists exploit those facts and recruit anybody who is slightly attracted to them by remote means.

The constant need to find accommodation, employment and fighting off debt collectors make building relationships very difficult indeed for a working person. And there is literally no means to actually check for truth beyond what a relative presents as truth. Remember the parents who got convictedof supporting their son’s time with Daesh, when he told them he went on a humanitarian holiday?

Long gone are the days of secure long-term tenancies in council flats, the job for life at the state owned service or local factory.

Yet the people who keep our economy going rely on short-term contracts, zero working hours to make their operatoin profitable and operational.

Whilst any abnormal event like for instance Covid-19 leads to the closing down of schools, which form the main social contact for children, the online world that recruits extremists keeps on going and never sleeps.

People now make it a habit ot organise some sort of demonstration, just to socialise with others, it has become a way of life.

Whilst law enforcement agencies are seriously behind keeping up with covert organisatoins recruting and training the new radicals, I cannot see modern governments actually being able to halt the discontent.

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The old-fashioned ideas of family, religion, have been replaced with modern legislation, which no longer puts morals or god at the forefront of their thinking.

There is no family unit that can catch up ideological uncertainties, no school that is always available and doesn’t expel delinquents, no church that actually translates old ideology into modern terms.

We are all in-betweeners. Trying to make sense of the morality of our bibles in comparison to modern laws and trying to find solace in our family units, which hardly have the time to have a meal together.

 

The cost dimension of protests

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The days of the speaker’s corner collective have long gone and now protests have taken on larger and more expensive dimensions.

Whilst everybody must have the right to voice opinions, the cost of such protests are going far beyond what law makers imagined.

The law must include the cost liability of protests.

Some organisations are riding rough shot with our resources and lest not forget that every police officer who attends a protest cannot deal with those issues that appear to make our every-day lives pleasant or not like reducing burglaries or drug dealing in our communities.

There is a difference between employment related strikes and protests and wider issues, which take place in our streets. All organisations who organise large scale protests must be made liable for the cost of policing them.

Thought control from Mayor Facebook

Having heard that YouTube – owned by Facebook – has shut down the postings of David Icke, a proclaimer of weird theories about the origin of Covid-19, it seems interesting, to say the least, that we now have thought control of the Internet imposed upon us.

Just wonder whether an alpha-male like David Icke will take that laying down. I don’t agree with his opinion, that G5 could be responsible for Corona Virus but it is an opinion, wrong or right. People no longer have the choice to listen to nonsense now.

I noticed that YouTube also deleted one of my videos. It was actually factually correct but not very pretty and filmed in a darkened room. It dealt with the origin of the Freemasons, a subject that was discussed on social media 30 years ago. Not that I am particularly interested in it, but it is noticable that YouTube thought it needs to be removed.

On the matter of enrichment, I thought the more the better. And as long as it doesn’t promote open violence or hate why can’t people say what they think any longer?

Just went shopping the other day and really appreciated that we have so many shops from people of different cultures who all sell basically the same stuff but sell it for their own communities from different outlets.

Trading standards could come along and say, they will not allow shops from people from differing cultural backgrounds but they don’t. It is not allowed to discriminate against other cultures, so why is it allowed to discriminate against whacky ideas by some individuals?

David Icke does not promote denial of the Holocaust. He merely thinks that G5 has to do with Corona Virus. The flat earthers are allowed to publish.

Perhaps what people need to do is to hire their own internet servers, which do not rely on major publishers and publish their own stuff by their own servers.

I curently use WordPress but do not need the platform.

I have noticed a big drop in postings on Facebook. It seems to get out of fashion.

Betterment

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So Agent Hotchner argued that he rather sees serial killers locked up for life to show how they are a failure rather than have them put to death, so that they can’t think they won and go down in glorious death.

But then he resigns, citing his and his child’s safety because some serial killers, many of which make up state penitentiaries, conspired to frame him and reported him to the CIA who sent SWAT teams round to arrest him on the basis of a convicted serial killer giving information to the CIA about Agent Hotchners apparent misgivings. All of the data was forged by the convicts but the CIA had to arrest the FBI agent on the strenght of the lifers evidence.

One could argue, if you put on the death penalty then the totally deprived individuals who committed such heinous crimes could no longer cause any harm to the living.

What is the point in fighting crime and putting criminals behind bars if those sentenced can then use electronic communications and friends on the outside to murder retired agents, steal their identification badges, pretend to be from the bureau and commit further crimes like murder?

You can’t make any progress if those sentenced do not improve and do not show any betterment but only use their time to cause more damage to law enforcement and civilians.

Serial killers are the most depraved type of human beings. If you watch Criminal Minds, it is completely off the chart how reprived those individuals are. I do not know whether the material on Criminal Minds was taken from real cases or not. But if anybody who lives in normal society can detach themselves so far from reality and our laws as to murder others without any care for social norms, are they really able to ever improve or are they so damaged that they are no longer able to learn?

On the other hand you could argue, just do not believe a criminal convict without any doubt of its merit. Should the CIA have taken the word of a convicted mass murderer to arrest an FBI agent?

In the film the whole block of mass killers staged a mass breakout. Making agents have to re-capture at least 9 extemely dangerous mass murderers.

Considering that these criminals cause severe danger to the private lives of agents, it is not in the interest of human kind to allow those convicted to conspire to undermine society further once in jail.

It all depends on quantity, you may be able to keep a few depraved criminals in jail but if you got a lot, they can cause real damage by the sheer volume of their support systems and they can bring society to the abyss.

 

250 shades of deprivation

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The more I watch Criminal Minds, the more it becomes clear to me why those laws against bullying and child abuse came into place.

Many perpetrators came from broken homes and were terribly abused during childhood.

Yet, the most common factor a lot of the crimes have is facility. Criminals have remote facilities available that allow them to commit crimes without others noticing it.

Remote locations, weapons and a deranged mentality are three factors for the criminal intention to materialise.

On the counter-side is often a victim that is timidly agreeing to be kidnapped. Unless victims were outright knocked out, at the point of abduction, they often agree to be taken away with some threat.

Today we have a lot of support available in schools to help kids with special needs and monitoring in place to prevent abuse at home and in school and other public institutions.

But in a small country like Britain where there is little space to hide from detection, in a country like the US with it’s huge geographical distances, it is much more likely that criminals occupy remote dwellings, abandoned buildings and have weapons than here in the UK.

We all live on top of each other, in houses, flats, which are easily overheard. Our culture has adapted to a nowhere to be able to have complete privacy lifestyle. Any indiscretions get overheard and reported by nosy neighbours.

Perhaps over-population is a defence mechanism of humanity to avoid brutality that can only occur in remote locations from depraved individuals, who have no sense of civil behaviour towards others.

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